I'm studying abroad in Rome for the Spring 2015 semester, and I have a separate blog specifically for the trip. Posts on it are much more regular, and will include many awesome pictures to look at. So check it up and follow my trip there!
We all go through our entire lives constantly learning and studying the way life itself works, and for everyone that experience is different. This website is basically a place for me to write about experiences that I've had in life, what I think about the world, and really any random interesting thing I might find. I plan on posting more academic thoughts and interesting archaeological things. Really it'll be a bit of everything. More recent posts or those that I think are more important will be posted here on the home page for a time, but everything will be under the Blog section.
This morning I was thinking about how connected our everyday lives are to the internet nowadays. The world that we live in now is so completely intertwined with the internet that when we aren’t up to date on checking things like Facebook we miss out on the events of the people around us. With my classes and work I’m only checking Facebook briefly before I leave the apartment and when I get home in the evening, and even that is not a very infrequent timeline. I know people that only check in on Facebook every few weeks, and then there are the people who are still not on Facebook.
This morning when I checked my Facebook I noticed a post from a close friend who is apparently moving out of state after some big life changes. Even though I check Facebook daily, these important posts from her had been lost in the midst of the constant stream of information that is my News Feed. Facebook has always been what I rely on to keep up to date with my friends, especially since I’m now away at school, but apparently even that isn’t working.
Facebook has been to me a way to stay connected, but it seems like it’s leaving an even bigger distance between people. I myself use it to make posts about events in my life and I assume that since it’s on Facebook that everyone has been informed. How often do you ask someone how they’re doing and get the response “did you see my Facebook post” or “did you get my tweet”? Just this weekend my flat mate and I were watching a movie and we heard a knock on the door. When I answered it our other flat mate came walking in with something clearly not ok. When we asked him what happened he told us that “we don’t check Facebook enough” and waited until we did so to find out what happened. After consulting Facebook, rather than have the person in front of us explain, we found out that he had spent the entire day at the hospital. We are so stuck in the virtual world that we revert to checking it even when the person is in front of us!
I don’t claim to have any sort of solution to this problem, in face this is really just blurting out of my thoughts on the matter. So what do you think? Does this ring any bells for you as well? Maybe it evens out in the end because I’m still in touch with people I would have long lost touch with if it weren’t for Facebook, but all I know is that Facebook is clearly changing the way that we interact with each other. Be it for better or worse.
If you wear a religious symbol regularly, what situations would you remove it for? Personally I wear either one of my pentacles or another symbol daily, and if I don’t have it on I feel physically uncomfortable. For me I feel as though I have a spiritual connection to my pents(short for pentacle, which is that star symbol that a lot of people think means I worship Satan, which I don’t). I have more than one, and each of them are special to me, most have been gifts from people close to me. My boyfriend knows better than to bother with getting me necklaces because I would almost never wear them because the pent does not come off. He has gotten me some pents, and I trade off which ones I wear every so often. But one of them is always on.
The point of this lead up is; what do you do if someone asks you to take it off, for whatever reason? For me,the only times that I have removed a pent has been when I am going to a funeral in a church, and for the sake of those in attendance who are grieving I don’t want to cause a fuss. In those cases I switch to a less obvious pagan symbol, like a spiral goddess, or my jade Quan Yin that looks like a Buddha. I’ve even gone to Christmas Eve mass wearing my pent, because I only take it off for rare occasions. Simply attending another religions service for me isn’t reason enough to take me pent off because it is a part of who I am. I feel as though it's unfair and disrespectful for someone to even request that you remove it. No one has the right to decide for you when it is or isn't ok for you to be honest about what your relgion is, or who you are.
It’s not that I’m trying to throw it in anyone’s face that I’m pagan it’s something that I am always wearing. I don’t have some especially large one to throw on in order to make others uncomfortable, I’m simply not going to allow other people’s ignorance or close-mindedness to change the way I dress on a daily basis. It’s not my job to hide who I am in order to make you more comfortable. This mindset doesn’t come without consequences of course. There are people out there that will care, and will judge you negatively because of it. That’s why wearing your pent is a very personal choice, some people don’t want to deal with the discrimination. It bothers me sometimes, but not enough to make me change who I am. I’ve had people be wonderfully nice to me until the second they see that symbol, and suddenly it’s like I’m a leper. It sucks and it’s not fair, but I’d rather know that they were that type of person then to be around someone who only likes me because they don’t know who I am yet.
I've been struggling a lot lately with just going about the day. And before you stop reading and because you think this is just as depressing as the last blog, there's a point to this one. When the world around you seems to be crashing down around you, the easiest thing to do is to crawl into a hole(or burrow into bed with your kindle) and try to ignore it. And the world will pass you by.
I know how hard it is to get yourself excited to go out and do something when nothing in the world feels right. That's how I felt this last friday. I friend invited me out to go to a Snow Patrol concert. In my less than thrilled with life mood I almost turned her down for a night of wallowing in bed, but I didn't. I got up, and I went a little extra on getting dolled up to look pretty, and I went to that concert, the first concert of my adult life actually. And I had a blast. For 5 hours I got to relax and be the happier carefree me again. It was an amazing concert, and apparently it was also the first show of their last American tour. So this is an experience that I very likely would never have been able to have again in life. I almost missed out on that by giving in to my depressive state.
Now I'm not saying that I feel all hunky dory, 'the world is fabulous', and carefree because I went to a concert. I'm still feeling pretty shit, and it's still hard to get out of bed in the morning, but for one night I didn't give in to that feeling, and because of that choice I now have memories that I'll cherish. The new headline quote on my home page right now fits in with this very well. "The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice versa the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.(The Doctor, Doctor Who)" Just because I went to the concert doesn't mean that it wiped out all the bad things that are going on, but the bad things that are going on still can't taint those 5 hours of joy spent with a friend experiencing something new.
When I first started this website I had a certain idea of what I wanted it to be about. I wanted this to be a more intellectual and spiritual based website to post some of my more well thought out ideas about life. I wanted to show the thoughtful, spiritual, intellectual part of me. While that is a large part of who I am, and I love being able to express that, there are several aspects of me, and sometimes it's not always all fine and dandy. That is essentially the reason why this blog has never really picked up. I tried to keep it away from personal posts about the general ups and downs of my life. I'm going to change that now.
This site will still have posts about some of my more profound thought trains, but it will also include posts about my daily life, things that are going on, and the pitfalls that I may experience. With this new mindset I hope to be able to feel free to express myself more openly in my posts, and to give a more complete picture of the person that I am. I need to bring the aspects of myself together so that I don't feel like I'm segmenting the parts of me, to fit certain situations. So basically expect to see more changes on this site, and to see more posts about my life in general.
This is a post I've wanted to sit down and write for a while, so here I go. The idea for this post came to me when I was watching an episode of How I Met Your Mother for what was likely the 10th time. I've always liked the show, and it's just good fun most of the time, but at this point I realized the bigger reason why I liked the show. How I Met Your Mother may seem like it's just a really drawn out story about how some guy met his wife, and it may seem a bit pointlessly long, but it's really not. It's a story about how even the little things in life can have a bigger influence than you think. Each choice that you make in life changes your life, whether it's in a big way, or in a little one, and it changes the person that you become.
I've always been of the mindset that I wouldn't go back in time and change even the smallest of things about my life because I'm not sure how that would impact the person that I've become. Even the shitty things I've been through, and the idiotic things I've done, everything adds up to the person that I am, and I wouldn't change that. In the episode that led me to this post Ted, the main character, highlights all the bad things that had happened to him that year, and then he calls in the best year of his life, because it led him down the path that eventually led to his wife. Without all the horrible things, he wouldn't have even been in the position to meet his wife.
Life can be a crazy journey, and you never know where you're going to end up. Each and every moment can lead you to a new place, a new experience, even a new you. Even the bad things in life will help you to learn lessons and to grow further. While that may not be of much comfort through the bad times, once you're through them, you can look back and realize that things worked out for the best, and while you may not have enjoyed going through it, you've grown from having the experience.
So next time you're watching How I Met Your Mother, or some other sitcom, remember that there's sometimes depth beyond the surface even in modern television. Inspiring Literature can be found in the least expected places.